I'm Back!

Well, its been nearly three months since my last posting and my son in Israel reminded me of this recently. These three months have been filled with separation, moving and renewal. As my youngest now begins High School (which is hard to believe) and my middle one goes off to college (which is harder to fathom), I have taken some time to reflect on the deeper importance of the small things in life.

I mean, we are so focused on the big picture most of the time. I have taken great comfort in walks with my dog, playing Wii-fit with my girls, finding the right piece for the house, sipping a glass of wine on the balcony, etc... Yes, there is a looming big picture but sometimes you have to just think small. When the big picture seems overwhelming, taking the step back seems like the right thingto do.

That is what I think this year is about. It is the great pause in the life of a type A person. Sometimes the karma just catches up with us and we get too caugh up in the long range focus. So caught up that we loose focus and we begin to step over the little things that are equally important.

I have reflected alot on my purpose for this year. I think that this year is about self-expression or "torah l'shem shamayim". I think that I am supposed to just learn for myself, be a congregant (very hard for me) and try to expend my energy on the small things in life. Things like helping my kids move on in their lives and giving them all the tools they need to become successes.

My opportunity will come. I am sure of it. It took me a while to get to this point but I have now. Impatient though we are, this race for the rest of my life will be won with slow and steady searching for the essence of who I am and what I want for myself, family and community.

So I'm back. Check each week for more musings and ramblings...